When?

When do you realize that you are beyond the point of trying?
When your shoulders slump or from the deep inner sigh that you never knew you wanted to do?

When do you realize that life will never be easier?
When every step is painful and yet you continue, just to end up at the start?

When do you realize that you will be the only person you will ever need?
When you see your shadow is the only one that has your back?

When do you decide to wake up from the happy dreams?
When putting on a smile is the only way to keep going?

When do you realize that you are alive?

When?

When I don't feel like being alive.